I was sitting here and looking through some books. When I found my old diary! I started to read in it and I got shocked!

It's also a long time ago that I wrote in this book!
I haven't seen Facebook for months
And today when I arranged in my bedroom and booked pop-up on my bed! It gave me a half an heart attack

I started to read the book and as soon as I started I could not get it go!
I don't remember those feelings that I had when I started writing this book!

One chapter of this book I would really really like post here on the blog for my friends to see how broken down I was !

Chapter 1

If anything would happen to me.
Then I want my family to know how much I really loved them!
Life without Marre Is unbearable!
I can't take it anymore, I had tried to MoveOn, but I can't ! The missing off Marre is on bearable.. I might be selfish but I can't do this anymore, not without him! I don't want to do just to you, but I can't keep on living my life like this
living my life in pain!


I love you, more than words can say


M- mom you you mean the world to me you're my best friend and I'm going to miss you so much

Z- I love you more than you can ever understand! My biggest wish was that you and me would be closer as sisters.

Please forgive me for what I'm about to do,
But I need to find a way for me to stop missing him!

You mean the world to me
I love chicken I let you know and I love you until the end of time, you made me strong enogh so I could take this eight months without him! But I can't fight anymore the part of missing him is just too strong,

My last wish is that I will be buried As close to him as possible!

PS I'm sorry I wish I could find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you and how sorry IAm for doing this to you !

You are my life and my everything,
But I life without Marre, it's not a life at all ! Because for the last cupol of
Months I have been just a shall of what I just to be when he was araoud!

I'm sorry! I love you more than you could ever understand. Then, now , and forever I will guide you , guard you and be whit you everystep of the way!

It's over now
Because he can't keep on living a life when Mauricio isn't in it!!


The is from 12/okt-2011
And its Chocking how i Can still feel tjat way to many Times'

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